2020, what a year.
A slow paced year. Or a fast paced year.
It all depends which side of the coin you decide to look at.
Slow because most of us had to live in a different reality, in a reality which is void of travelling and constant motion. A reality which was more about staying at home. Fast because the change was rapid and it gave us much time for ourselves and it gave us time to explore our needs and priorities in life.
A fast self exploratory adventure of our depths and inner selves that many needed.
But some didn’t. They didn’t because some of us go through these thoughts more regularly and they don’t need a pandemic to start thinking about their own lives and how do they live it. Of course that the pandemic inflicted and speeded up the thought process about where we are heading, but ideally each one of us shouldn’t just accept their life as it is (for whatever reason) and they should always strive for the better.
For something that will make our lives better and will make us happier.
Because at the end life should be about happy moments, moments that we enjoy and moments that really make us appreciate life and time itself.
I decided to write this post because I think that many don’t enjoy life fully.
And today I realized that I am one of those people that don’t. And I wasn’t sad.
On the contrary I was very happy and satisfied. I was happy and smiling because it was some sort of a revelation. Every now and then we all need those revelations in life that start with just a simple thought, a thought that we need in order to to see life from a different angle. An angle that gives us many other opportunities and challenges.
A thought can open new horizons in our life that are needed for our mental health and life in general. Or it can close those horizons. The coin has always two sides.
When I am talking about new horizons I am talking about getting out of that comfort zone we all enjoy.
We enjoy it because it provides us a false safety, a false stability that we use to base our life on. And if the base is false, what kind of a life is it then? It is most certainly not alive and real. We were all raised and taught to have that stability and financial safety. But without a proper motive why does it matter? In a dynamic world full of constant changes , why do we limit ourselves to something that is constant? Isn’t that counter productive? Maybe we need that stability to balance the world around us. But from a Libra perspective I can tell you that it certainly doesn’t balance it. It doesn’t balance it because in this capitalistic society most of us strive for a good job and they are happy when they receive it. But it’s a false happiness and safety. And it took me 3 years of working in an office (and home office recently) to realize that. Working for a salary.
Working for a position. Jumping from one project to another, endlessly. For what? Should that be really the driver? Even if after 20 years we become the CEO of Amazon, if you weren’t satisfied along your journey, would it really matter? Many of you might say: “It’s life and you have to survive somehow”. Yes and that is true, but if you don’t change something you basically end up living your life as a slave. You are a slave to your work. You are a slave to life because you are chained. You are a slave to the government that controls you. You are a slave to society that might see you as different so you are afraid to change. You are a slave to yourself.
And you are convinced it’s good because it gives you that false stability.
Stability covered in sadness, stress and frustration.
So that is why I am dedicating this post to changes.
And since I am a stoic, the change must happen in the present.
For a better life. For a life fulfilled with happiness and joy.
For myself, the people around me and my (future) family.
For the entire society, because I really started to find “normal capitalistic” life dull. Life is too short and if we don’t act at this moment and make slow but important steps, we are drawn in that comfort zone again and the thought is gone. And it might not reappear again. What kind of changes will my life endure I still don’t know. But for sure it will be for the better.
Because I know that whatever I choose to change it will be a meaningful change.
Conveyed in a certain dose of risk, but risks are there to be taken in life, aren’t they?
All thanks to that thought that crossed my mind today.
Stay safe and read/write along.
Sincerely yours,
ControlledStranger
Controlled stranger 